"love me now, and i'll court you forever."

may 4, 2009. :)

ko: ba't may 4? diba 7? wednesday yun e. sumamba ako jan.

xa: eh gusto ko may 4. may kakaiba na ko naramdaman nyan nun e.

ko: ha?
xa: tinanong kaya kita nun kung gusto mo ko. hahaha. XD

ko: aahh, :"> [blush] oh? ano sinagot ko nun?

xa: haha. OU. hahaha. inlab na pala ako sayo nun. :)

-- CHUGUG! BENG! BENG! :D hahaha.

this is it. the day where it all started. two lonesome lovers who both fell into a bliss. in short, my fall..

it's as if it was yesterday when i first set eyes on his visage. he was there, quietly sitting back during the worship service. him wearing handsome white, and i, who was wearing lovely green. we were inches away from eachother. and it happened, i glanced at him with every chance i could get. he was just there, clueless as i thought. but as he told me, he sneaked glances upon me too. the timing was lovely, the weather was fine. it was a cold day in may. the sky's gray, the winds frustrating but the moment was FOREVER.

it ended, i had goosebumps all over me. for the last time before i stood up, i looked back and saw him. i hurriedly went out of the church, hoping to see him face-to-face as what we both wanted to do. to meet, face-to-face. i waited and waited. no sign. then there it went, i found myself inside our van while staring out the window. looking for signs of his details. then "POOF!" i saw him! i saw him! standing in front of the gates, holding an umbrella, obviously searching for someone. haha. i knew it was me. :) then i went bombastic. i wanted to get out of the van to finally meet him eye-to-eye. but the timing isn't right. we were leaving. :(

we arrived at home. we were already texting eachother, talking bout REGRETS of not having the chance to finally see eachother. we both felt nervous. i can still remember how i'd felt. then an hour later, he went to sleep. me and my family went to SM north. watched the movie, IRONMAN. then after buying tickets for the movie, we went to the dept. store to by knick-knacks. while walking, my cell vibrated, then "POOF!" he texted.

"i love you so much!"

Ou. Ahaha. Cguo iniicp m naalimpungatn aq nun nu? Ahaha.
Ncp q nga dn bka ln e. Ahoho. Peo nd e. Hanggang naun, aminado aqn inlab pdn sau
e. At lalung 2mitndi tlga nrrmdman q. Lm m? Nun cnb q un, nd nmn s
wla aq s srili, nd q tlga inintndi qn anu ibubunga nun. Tlgang bunsod
ng damdamin, bgla qn tnxt un ILYSM.

~~ chugug! BENG! BENG! XD peace naman. kinikilig ako e. hahaha. :))

:: mga naitago kong pics during that unforgettable day @ SM ::

wokei, gang dito na muna. :)

ganda ng panahon. ganda ng araw. ganda ng pecha. :D

HABERSARY. :]

wanderlust

wander lust ~ n.

A very strong or irresistible impulse to travel.

probably my favorite word, ever. haha. :D ang EVOL ko. :P (nakiki.EVOL nadin ako.XD)

san ba 'ko magstart? haha. oheah, sunday evenings. haha. watching spiderman 3, drinking coke, texting, uploading, etc., wala namang bago eburr. kabureng padin. haha. achuli, nag.miming ngapala kaming tutangtulit wid maskom friends last may 1. :D ansaya. kahit di ko mafeel yung place. fine naman. saka nako magsher ng mga pix. di pa kumpleto e. :) hayon,

churan! what's the date tomorrow?! ^_^ wuh? meypor! hahaha. yes, MAY 4, 2009. :) soo what? hahaha. :P hmm, probably one of the ever most super special day of my being? haha. wuribur, :D basta. masasabi ko lang, XD XD XD. hahaha. =)) saka nako magsher bout jan. basta, goal ko today, wait til 12:01. XD haha, patibayan kami. woho, xaxa, i wanna start na. naexcite ako sa body ng post kong to e. yep! intro palang tong kadaldalan ko. haha. XD

"take it easy on the body." -- XP

here i start,

she was afraid if she held him for too long, she’d lose this feeling – the rise and collapse of weak lungs, butterflies numbing her brain and tricking her vowels into slurs, hearts flooding and spilling over into messy red and white pools of affection.

she’s all eyelashes, splintered bones and eager dreams, while he’s just newspaper print, rough lips and hopelessness. they met in the turbulent center of a hurricane, swept up in disaster and lost in the redorange flames of another blazing skyline.

forever was seven letters too many, three syllables too close to smothering him. words didn’t matter to her anyway, she’d much rather have his fingers rack her ribcage in the rhythm of could-be verbs and his cumulus eyes lock her into a cloudy state of moving and being, of acting and re-acting, of loving and being loved. forever was whispered between inches of flesh and heat, between bedsheets and silk.

he hates even numbers and speaks in run-on sentences, but the most important words were the ones he was never taught how to say. she’s infatuated with city sidewalks and highway signs, never able to stay in one place for long. she’s not used to fireworks exploding behind her eyes like movie screens, and he’s not used to the galaxies opening up to him, promising him something better than addiction and dying alone.

she becomes his drug and he becomes her reason for living. he pumps his needles full of her wanderlust and starry eyes, inserting passion into running veins and feeling her body pulse through his own. she breathes his air and for once feels lucky, for once feels like the reason why bullets had never worked on her fragile body have been for the better, a divine intervention.

bedsheets tangled around alabaster ankles and careless spring fingers have never been so beautiful. the sun rises, rays of mauve and gold spilling out over her lightly freckled cheeks and his sun-stained back. for once, she feels like there’s a point and a reason to listen to blue jays sing and kiss slowly.

-- love changes everything. :) AGREE? AGREE! PEDIGREE! hahaha. :D

what more can i say? too mahalay ba? haha. part of my imaginative side is being part of this so-called dreamland where my dreams become reality and a reality full of dreams. what da? haha.

so it is my will to make things happen my way, and no highway options. :)

"scenes from the past..

..made way to our future."

habersary! :D

lift me up

:D it was yesterday when i was toured by my SYQUIA FRIENDS around the busy streets of SYQUIA. accompanied with EMEE, CARLOS, CARLO, MAMI GEN and MAK. :)

the journey started nung sinundo ako sa rob. manila around 12 den straight to emee's house. :] kaen tahong, kwentuhan, and updates sa latest chika sa lokal nila. haha. :D pangulo kasi si emee ng binhi sa lokal nila. hoho, :)) full of stories.

ang paglalakbay nagstart mga past 1 na ata? first stop, at carlos house. :D my super tangkad syquia friend. den, lakad lakad. next stop, carlo's house. my syquia friend. haha. as in FRIEND. yun tawagan namin e. :P and so, lakad lakad ebuur, tas sa lokal na ng SYQUIA! :D haha. talagang nag.roam kami sa luob. si emee kasi e. haha. ankyut ng luob. blue na blue. hoho. cute ng koro. 3 rows ata? purgat na. tas yun, tuloy ang lakad, labas payong kasi umulan na. lakad lakad, daan kami kela clang pero wala xa dun. tas si mami gen na dinaanan namin. ginulantang at di pa daw xa naliligo. so almost 1 hr namin xang hinintay sa tapat ng house ni kuya arjay. :D anader syquia friend. my NINONG ARJAY. humm? yun tawag ko sakanya ebursins e. calls me, inaanak. :) aon, wala xa dun. nasa work. sadly, 6pm pa labas nya. :( no worries! dami pang nextyms. sabi ko nga. :D next stop, sa tinapayan. hoho, wid mami gen na uber apekted kasi gusto na mag.GM kaso wa xtra lod. haha. :D

:: at Ninong's tapat while waiting for mami gen ::

w/ EMEE & CARLO

:: RIBER BANKO ::

haha. napagtripan ko lang kunan. tagal ni mami gen e. :D

last stop, mak's house. and ooh, btw, pansin ko lang. lahat ng bahay na dinaanan namin, lahat may aso! haha. :)) natawa tuloy ako. as in ASO. :P hoho. eoko pa naman sa dog. haha. aon, so dun kami nagtagal sa house nila mak. BLUE and ORANGE ang awra. :) hoho, kyut naman. den namit ko din mga pinsan nya. si CHI, TIKANG, and INDRA. :D namit ko din si RICO. dog nila. haha. ay sorry, ganda ng view sa tuktok nila. super tanaw mo buong makati. ganda talaga, kahit pahirapan makaakyat kasi ankitid ng hagdan. di ko keri. haha. :D yun. binulabog nila si kuya aeron sa pagtulog. haha. kantahan sila, nuod, tingin album, kwentuhan, PSP, etc. yun. ay! ganda boses ni kuya aeron. :D ayusin nya lang yung NIVER. haha.

:: haha, napagtripan ko yung puno kasi kakulay ko. :P ::

:: wid emee and half of mak sa terrace nila ::

chugug! 6:30, umalis na kami sa bahay nila. libot libot onti tas nagpart na ng ways sa puregold. :D wee, kabitin. haha. gusto ko pa talaga bumalik! XD tae, babalik ako! haha. so far, ang narecol kong mga lugar dun, ROB. MANILA, UP MANILA, STA. ANA TULAY, STA. ANA CHURCH, and SYQUIA ST. haha. yun lamang. XD and still, di ko lam papunta kasi hinatid ako ni manong papunta dun. haha. wawents tuloy. haha. di ako makakadayo dun magisa. hurr,

pero eniwey, masaya sila kasama. :D natuwa ako. wilkam na wilkam ako. :) at gusto ko pa sila makabonding. ^^,


yung paguwi naman ang naging pagsubok. haha. NALIGAW SI MANONG. XD haha. natatawa ako. so 6:30, sakay kami taxi papuntang SM megamol kasi dun meeting place namin ng sis ko. at dun kami susunduin ni manong. mga past 7 nasa megamol na kami. kaen sa MCDO. hintay hintay. mga 8:30 kami umalis sa mcdo tas hinintay namin si manong gang mga 9:45 siguro?! grabe diba? pano, umabot ng rob. manila! haha. kala dun kami sunduin. hahaha. :)) tawa ko. haha. mga pas 10 nakauwi na kami. :D

hayon, kapagod ang araw kahapon pero masaya. :) sa friday ngapala, swimming kami wid friends. wee, kasama TUTANGTULIT. :D can't wait. naexcitement nako. ^^, haha. ang chorba kasi ng summer ko e. hoho,

"my friends lift me up."

.. thanks for the lift. :)

my half-blood prince

a blessed thursday to all. :) i love the weather. di mainit, di din ganun kalamig. it just reminds me of 2008's summer. it's as if the summer gave way to my love birth. the seed of the pale blue sky that awaits my sprinkle of heritage.

chos. chos. chos. XD haha. wareberr, oxa, dahil excited nako maxado para sa upcoming release ng harry potter 6, the half-blood prince, at dahil natapos ko nadin sa wakas ulit ang 6th book, kahit paulit-ulit ko nang binabasa, eto naa. eto naa. ahaha. :D panuorin nyo nalang yung trailer. just soo happy. stayin' loyal talaga ko for hawee. :P

http://movies.yahoo.com/movie/1809791044/trailer -- click. click. :)

:: teaser ::

wee, love the story. halo-haling imusyon ang aking nadarama. mygas naman kasi, super matured na ang mga kaganapan. i just hope na di xa too RUDE kung ipapalabas. i mean, what difference does it make to do the movie, right? hoo. it just so happen na after almost 6 years of enchantments w/in the walls of hogwarts, students are already cursed to fall soo deeply inlove. huwaa! XD kilig! ahaha.

one thing more, at dahil nakiki-half-blood prince din ako, i have my own half-blood prince! :P bleah. hoho, pano xa naging half-blood? kasi half tao, half baboy ang dugo nya. HAHAHAHAHAHA. =)) sana di nyo naget. ahaha.

and so, i woke up kanina, thinking of what else can i share for my part 2 of this years downfall. wuhoo~ taka kayo, bat DOWNFALL? hmm, before 2009 kasi, i already had a hunch that this year will bring me loads of tests, obstacles, trials, etc. and so it happened, at exactly january 1, my faith was at steak, my love suffers, my feelings held back, and so was a promise. xaxa, i'm beginning to spoil everything. ahaha. XD e sa bigla kong naalala e. hoho.

-- saxophone. YM.

wee~ magkachat kami ngayon. ahaha. remember saxopohone? from december's thanksgiving madness? hoho. :)) last night we had a little talk after church. :D achuli, it wasn't a little talk compared to our last personal conversation last december. hoho. it was quick though. a 10 min. talk went fine. i still can recall his smile, the way i made him laugh, the way he wore that magic baronggay. ahaha. :D he's cool. he's nice. he's young but his heart's made way for maturity to arise. sharing me his experiences paved way for my view of this warrior's fading past. oh well, what else can i offer? a helping hand. a strong friendship.

-- should've been our 31st.

having a recap of my last 23's, this one's different. this 23rd day of this month is more considered to be celebrated for he was once again embraced by my instincts. he's welcomed again by the inch of my past. but it's just like the feeling of NEVER to again bring back the bitterness of the past. he's just a boy full of regrets. but for me, that didn't matter much. i'm happy for what's our state as of now. pakasaya nalang ako sa buhay ko. at xa din, sa buhay nya. :)

-- 11 days to go.

hoo hoo, woot woot, XD ucgi, count kayo and see where the calendar lands. :) i don't want to talk about it much. i'm just contented at our situations now. evetho for the past days mejo we ended up having blurred conversations, nickle-minded fights, etc. wankuba, dahil sa love na yan, nagiging isip bata ko. imachurr, yaakk. iih, ahaha. :)) and just so you know, he keeps on telling me that this year will bring us lots of tragedies and i believe that. i just wish us more luck! lak. lak. lak. :]

at dahel wako magawa, see what's on my mind this day. :D

so, anong meron sa pic na'to?

wula lang, haha. natuwa lang ako kasi kulot xa tas sumaludo xa. woo~ get? :O

na-feel mo rin? XD

kunwari kapang di mo alam. :P

haha. dancing in the moonlight. ;D

ehh, feel kong lumipad e.

de pag na-fall ako...

.. sasaluhin nya ko. :">

exile of my memoirs.

the shadows moved across your face.

it was fragile, needy, and desperate.

you took a breath

and said to me,

“i need you.

i’m broken without you.”

i watched you

and the shadows.

realizing you needed me,

after all.

she never felt like this before.

she was venerable and scared,

and the worst part- he knew it.

she looked into his eyes, and he into hers.

she felt a warmth spread throughout her entire body.

he put his arms around her waist

and she knew she would be safe forever,

if only they could stay like this.

he slowly pulled her closer, closer, closer…

'til she could hear his slow steady breaths.

her heart was racing as she slowly fell into his embrace,

surely he could hear it,

he should be able to feel it- her heart was pounding so hard!

slowly and ever so gently he bent down.

our lips met.

his lips were soft and tender,

then his lips opened…his tongue was warm and sweet on mine.

she felt as though the rest of the world had disappeared

and it was just the two of them standing,

there on the path.

she dreaded the fact that we couldn’t stay like this forever;

lost in a kiss.

but too soon he pulled back, gently smiling-

he knew that it had been her first kiss.

she looked at him and she knew that she loved him;

there was no way she would ever understand it, nor he.

all she knew was that this was the man she was destined to marry.

her life had started the day she met him,

she could be nothing without this man.

he was her life, her soul,

everything she needed and ever would need.

maybe one day we would find a way to be lost in a kiss forever.

"the next thing i know, i felt BLANK."

2009's a downfall. part 1.

heeeyyaaall. :D

lalala, miss'd posting memoirs here. ahaha. and it took me almost forever to reminisce my past posts. hoho. XD kakatuwa naman ang NAKARAAN. it's been months mula nung huli akong UMARIBA dito. ahaha. and so natuto akong magbitiw ng ganung salita. hahaha. =))

soo many changes occured when 2009 exhilarated my sojourn. [di maxadong malalim diburr?] HAHA.

kaya, dunno where to start! ahaha. but one thing's for sure. I CHANGED FOR THE BETTER. :D hoho. medyo naging matured nadin sa mga bagay-bagay. OWS?! hahaha. :)) well, i enjoy living my life noh? hoho.

okay then, ba't nga ba AMARANTHINE? hayon, chos lang. ahaha. blooming daw kasi ako lagi sabi nila. so i've decided na magsearch bout flowers na mejo may kunek sakin. ahahaha. eon. :D

game! HOW'S MY 2009??

chugug! frustrating? exhausting? hagard? nerve-racking? thrill-seeking? ill-mindling? etc.

hoho. in short, WIRDO. HAHAHA. =)) kakaiba. this year really tested my humanism. mejo abnoy kasi ako the past year. xaxa, i'll just give you the highlights on each month. :D

~ JANUARY 29, 2009. UNEXPECTED CALL.

it was late at night. i was texting some friends when suddenly our phone rang. noticing the time, it was way past 10:00pm, nobody was expecting any call. but then i recalled someone who always called me at this time of night. without any hesitations, i picked up the phone and found myself losing grip of HIS voice, arguing such illicit things, hap'nings i've been involved with, rumors of me being with someone else, and more. thinking that the main reason for HIS call was to bombard me with my wrong-doings, sins, and OUR PAST. then, seconds after, he was gone. i hung up the phone and found myself crying. crying these confused tears. my battered heart suddenly came to pieces as i held up the phone for HIS next call. then, we talked. i just mis'd HIS voice, HIS every detail, HIS everything. after that night, it came to my senses. HE NEVER STOPPED, AND HE WILL NEVER STOP LOVING ME. :(

:: HIS HANDS ::

~ JANUARY SOMETHING. TUTANGTULIT.

"MGA DUNG, MGA DAY, KAMUSTA NA KAYO JAN?!" -- originally from jessie. (my bes)

hohoho. what's with that phrase? it all began one thursday evening, after our rehearsals for our sophomore's musical, while walking along the cold steps of NEU. me, my bestfriend, khayne and jam were walking and kinda like, playing with eachother alongside. dancing, doing silly gestures w/o paying any attention to the passerbys. haha. it was funny though. that night nitted up our true inhumanities and by then, we were always together and our blockmates called us "TROPANG DAY." due to that night. but then i was the one who called our troop, TUTANGTULIT.

simply because, TWO TANGkad, TWO LIiT. :D khayne and bes are both tall, while me and jam are short. :)) haha. silly me. and just then, we were inseperable for we had such a strong bond. :D

-- me, jam, bes, khayne. TUTANGTULIT. :D

:: these shots were taken suring our last GALABONDING @ SM. ::

~ MARCH 5-6, 2009. KULOT. UBERNYT. AMCA.

MARCH 4, 09. -- woo, new look, new che, NEW ME. haha. :)) for a change, got my hair curled. yes! permanent. and i soo enjoyed it. HAHA. :D why? coz i feel good and he loves it soo much. ahaha. wankuba! ano nakain nun at gusto nyang kulot ako. ahaha. XD kalorkey. just so you know, sooobrang nanibago ako sa ichura ko! ahaha. XD at first talagang i can't stop looking at meself at the mirror. but then, i was used to it. :]

:: the next thing i knew, KULOT NA'KO. :D ::

MARCH 5-6, 09 -- the first ever over night of TUTANGTULIT. :)) at my lola's house in sagana. i've decided to have our overnight there rather than at our place coz lola's house has this spare room that we can stay at. :D for free! haha. there then, it was soo exciting. haha. it was thursday night, they arrived at past 11:00pm. an hour away before midnight and a few hours away before we leave for the locale of mandaluyong. haha. XD kailangan kasi umattend ng bes ko ng panata for holy supper ng friday morning to make it to AMCA at night. kasi 8pm pa ang panata sa lokal nila. so yun, sacrifice kami. haha. tried not to sleep til 2am. thinking it's good to travel that early to avoid traffic. and so, nakatulog kami! haha. :)) thanks to khayne, who waked us up at around 2:30am and so we got up, got dressed and left for mandaluyong. the devotional prayer was 5am but we arrived around 4am. we went straight home to get some rest after the prayer. we arrived 6:30am. plenty of time to sleep before amca.

the red carpet starts at 2:00pm. we weren't able to make it. aww, but it's no big deal. :D we still had lots of fun. achuli, mas masaya nga kami sa ubernyt kesa sa AMCA e. ahaha. palpak kasi ang musical namin. pero thanks sa kanila, i was nominated for best supporting actress and best choreography.

:: hayan, my first ever awards in my MASKOM lyp. ::

game, it was AMCA @ noon. around 3pm, we went to school riding our van. sushal kami e. anuka, tricycle na nakagown? lerr, ahaha. :)) hayon, not that much tension felt inside the university hall. but the stage was great. :D love the color. BLACK and VIOLET. the evening was kinda boring for me. my troops already wanted to go home and eat. waha, we enjoyed much staying at my lola's house. ooh, and i'll never forget the hug my bestfriend gave me when i wasn't able to win the best supporting actress awards. she told me that for her, i'm still the winner. aww, :') ahaha. XD love her soo much! well then, here are some sneaks during the 15th AMCA. :)

:: AMCA night ::

oxa, 'gang dito nalang muna. hoho, still got loads to share. :) woo~ love the weather. maulan. wee, emo. haha. samba mode din later.

~ CYBER DARLINGS! MIS'D YOU ALL. ella. babistar. rheg. :* :* :*

"still no idea. but you know, i was over tired last night."

i'm back?

woo. :D

got meself updated. lalala,

ano ba nakaen ko at bigla kong niayos to!?

chos, anggulo padin kaya. :))

tsktsk, kelangan ko na maligo.

2 mins. before 7.

dadalo pako pamamahayag.

WAJA! :)

wee~ mag.uupdate ba 'ko?

WANKU. ahaha.

soon. soon. soon.

ipapaamoy ko sainyo ang 2009 ko!

XD

lalala,

'til now,

i TWINKOL, TWENKOL. :P

~ MISS MY CYBER DARLINGS ~

have a great summer guys!

shiing!

just so you know.

a cold and shiverring morning to all. :)

grabe! nagising ako kasi nangangatog ako sa lamig! brr,
i wanted to sleep more coz we got home late last night from project 8. reunion with my relatives at my mama's side. :) i really missed them a lot.

eon, apektado ako!!!!!
i've read the post of my bestfriend and i just swarm within her sadness and i also felt the bitterness of that post. grr!!! and i do miss her a lot!!!!!!! :(((((

hmm, so what's our agenda for the week?? :D

tomorrow opkors, we'll go to church. just don't know what time. then, thursday.. no idea. then the much awaited day!!! FRY-DAY! yep! as in PRITO! ahaha. we'll have a family shopping under the sun. just dunno where. ahaha. a family adbenchur as what i should say. :) i lived my whole life loving our family days. ^^ ahaha. family comes first right?? yeah! ahaha. and so, we planned to make shopping shopping sumwer. coz for the next week, we're fully booked.

we'll be going to different places with the whole family at my dad's side. for the first time after a very long time ago, we'll all be together. ^^, making memories. :)) ahaha. and i miss the ambiance of fresh air beside the sea, the touch of the waves beneath your feet, the sand playing all over your body, and the mark of enjoyment. ahaha. yung pangingitim namin. well, di naman ako nangingitim e. namumula lang. ahaha. :D pag napasobra, SUNOG! waha, :)) naah, don't care much though. no KJ's allowed. ahaha.

there there, i can't wait!!! gosh! no tupis! bawal daw sabi ni ano. ahaha. eh eh? ahaha. bawal nga KJ e. waha, go! summer in december!!! ahaha. LOL. XD

hmm, so kamusta naman ang UNLI sa globe diba? so irritating! grr, deh ako makapag unli. shets, i'm sure most of you too. ~:( why is it always like this in december??? hate it hate it! arrrggg,

Kea wla taung mggwa qnd mgtiis at mgtiis at mgtiis. Hae. Puo tiis. Ahaha. Gnun b tlga? Hehe. Dble bsta me pngako
tau s isat isa, gang s huli ha. :')

WEEEYYTT!!!! the "tiis" he's talking about is not yung pagtitiis sa unli ng globe! BUWAHAHAHA. natawa tuloy ako ng sobra. ahaha. he's talking bout something else. much deeper... --

hahaha. ano say nyo?? :") ako? wala. that's between us both nalang. most of our conversations should be kept. ayoko magkalat dito! tae, ahaha. :)) as a matter of fact, we're not really into the world. we have our own and it seems that we're much contented with that. ^^

our very own EMBRACIVE SANCTUARY. :) we pray what all our hearts outpoured. we eagerly seek for His guidance throughout this sojourn of ours. oh well, 2 more years and counting. hopefully we'll both graduate on MARCH 2011. hahaha. XD hope so. and if we do graduate, maybe.. just maybe.. we'll be able to find our way back into eachothers arms again. :]]

How long will it take for you to wait for someone you really really love??

~~ do you seriously want me to answer this question?? hmm, maybe they could say that i can wait forever if that forever carries my true happiness with the one i love. hmm, that could be it. but as for me, i'll just wait as long as he remains he me. thats all. if one day i'll wake up and no longer think about him or even sleep at night not thinkin' of him, then i should let it go. break free. for all my life i never wished to be stucked up with this so-called love. i call it a sacrifice. doing things i've never done before for the one you love. :)

maxado bang malalim? ahaha. that's life! so for some pips there who are encountering my same dilemma, then my motto for you would be.. WAIT IF YOU CAN, LEAVE IF YOU WANT. that's that. :) you shouldn't tie yourself up with uncertainties. nobody wants to wait for nothing. just enjoy life. be happy. make money. ahaha. XD

xaxa, nawa meron naman akong naiiwang aral kahit papano sa iba kong posts. well, i'm telling this as part of my experience though. true to life things. :D and as i live each day, i just live it the way i want it to be. i'm not into the saying, 'live everyday as if it's your last.' huh? what am i, a freak? as if everyday there's my dying day? an ending point? puhleez!!! get real. ^^

oh yeah, no more stars at night. ~:( crap! but i have my own star. in my pocket.. and i'll never let it fade away. :P

Linggo un db? Nun araw xeng ean, meon aqn mtnding nrrmdaman sau e. Dq naman
maexplain. Inlab n pla q sau nun. Haha.

ok, bringing back the memories from the past. that's all we did for the past nights before he went to laguna. :) it was soo sweet! ahaha. antalas ng memorya nya! waha, :D elibs ako talaga. ooh, i remembered the night when we both talked about the past. as in from the start 'til the current happenings. ahaha. it's definitely heartwarming knowing that this person recalls every detail you've imprinted in his life. from the day he first left a message of misidentites, 'til the day he last left a lifetime worth of promises.

*kilig*

hahaha. i can feel myself blushing na. waha, :D love it! tsk, okay then, i'm full. ^^, HAPPY TUESDAY! enjoy the rest of 2008. make the remaining days ever so unforgettable.

MUARIWARIWAPS! :-*

ABUCHEKEK! XD

who's he?

eeeppp!!

before anything else. let me greet everyone a HAPPY HAPPY THANKSGIVING!

our year end pasalamat is on going 'til tomorrow 10am.Ü

it was a solemn morning. everyone bowed their heads as they pray. the temple was filled with eager people wanting to feel His presence. everyone's hearts were filled with never ending thanks and praises for it has been almost a year full of guidance, care and the love from God.

as i march my way up to the balcony, i sat down and bowed my head. ignoring the noise coming from peoples footsteps, i started to pray. the very first sentence i said was..

SALAMAT PO..

yep, i recalled that very simple and short sentence. tears are dripping from my face and i kept on wiping every tear. i just can't stop sobbing 'coz my heart's filled with gratitude and eagerness. i know i haven't been that good to Him. i've done wrong during this year and i'm so ready to ask Him for forgiveness and to continue guiding me as the new year approaches.

i remembered my solo line in one of ka gemma manalo's songs that we sang for the christian music video. the song YOU MADE ME THE BEST I AM.......Ü

"for i'am one of your chosen ones, here within the Church of Christ, and that's enough for me.

THANK YOU for loving me, and everything You gave, now i sing to You Lord God to praise Your holy name.Ü"

aww, i missed those days. shooting. cameras. make-up. costumes. etc,Ü thank God i had that kind of experienced during my early years. :)

i still have two more services to attend to tomorrow. all the choir members are straight. hoo! very tiring of course. i dunno if my voice will still make it up to the last service. oh well, He'll take care of me. :D

~~ WHO'S HE??

let me have this part of my post in taglish ha.Ü

hahaha, game! para mabilis ang kwento. so, nakaupo na kami sa balcony. meju tumingin ako sa kapulungan. and i saw someone familiar. likod palang nya alam ko nang sya yun. WHO'S HE?Ü

and then, right after i changed my clothes, me and my bispren sol went to the lobby outside. and WOAH! andaming pipol! my gas! pichur pichuran sila. mga adik. pakipot pa sakin yung ibang warriors. ahaha. :)) funny sila. natatawa nalang ako sa sarili ko e. my gas naman kasi ang suot ko. bongga. pulang pula ako. damit, bag, sapatos at ipit!Ü hahaha. odiba? eye catching talaga. just feeling the spirit of xmas(?) haha. kidding. then yun, hila dito hila dun. i know di ako makakakuha ng kopya ng mga litratong yun kasi wala silang friendster. aww, saaad. ahaha. XD buti nga di mainit e. so mga 10:15 natapos ang pagsamba at mga 11:45 ata ko nakauwi. imagine? ahaha. nagenjoy ambruha.Ü

hayan, para may idea kayo how reddish(?) i am during the moments. ayoko ng pula talaga. and oh! thanks to my dear lola for the necklace and earings. that's her gift for me on my 18th birthday. i wore that during my party. :)

moments after taking pictures, tumayo ako sa may gilid kasi meju naiinitan nako. then i noticed someone wearing a white barong talking to a group of people. kaagaw pansin kasi xa lang yung nakawhite. so tumingin ako. waa!!!! WHO'S HE?Ü

yung kras ko lang naman! pwahaha. :)) name?? eoko nga. ahaha.Ü itago nalang natin xa sa alyas naa....

saxophone. ahaha. XD tae, wanku kung bat yung ang naisip ko. waha.Ü not because he knows how to play the saxophone... basta! ahaha.Ü there you go. he was standing maybe 5 steps away from me and i just stared at him hoping he'll look at me back. anlandi ko diba? minsan lang kasi yung ganung coincidence. lagi ko xa nakikita sa malayo o nakatalikod okia natatakpan. kaya yun.

i stared and waited.

then POOF!!! he looked at me and smiled.Ü aww, it was a moment talaga. ahaha. :)) natuwa naman ako. then i kept on looking at him from time to time. ang rude ko nga kasi kinakausap ako ng isang warrior and then panay sulyap ko sa kanya. then i didn't knew what got into me then tinanong ko xa habang nakatingin xa sakin..

ako: uuwi kana? *mejo natatawa na ewan*

xa: di pa. *umiling-iling na nakangiti*

HULI KA BOY!

tingin tingin din xa sakin. ahahaha. :D diba hansaya?? tas maya maya magkalapit na kami. maya maya magkatapat na tas maya maya magkatabi na! ahaha. :)) nagsiksikan kasi mga tao. aon, napasiksik ako sakanya. waha, panay nga ngiti ng loko e. ahaha. eon, mejo nabuburing nako kaya niyaya ko na warrior cousin kong umuwi. yep, may kasabay akong warrior pauwi. ahaha. nothing's wrong with that. di naman kami nagholding hands. duh!? pinsan ko nga e.

KALABIT KALABIT.

ou, pakapalan na ng pes! kasi super magkalapit na kami e. kinalabit ko xa then i said..

"una nako ha? ingat ka.Ü" with matching kaway kaway sa baba. ahaha. :)) then he said.

"ay cge ingat din." with a big smile on his face. hmm, i'm not sure if he said INGAT DIN. pareho kasi kaming natataranta that time! pwahaha. :)) so yun, tapos.. nakamayan ko xa!Ü my gas! edward cullen??? anlamig kasi ng kamay sobra! kala mo humawak ng yelo. ahaha. :))

then yun. we parted ways.Ü and as me and my cousin walked along the sidewalks of central, my cousin suddenly blurted out.

"ui si abraham oh! nasa likod!"

*lingon naman ako sa likod*

"abraham??"

"ay mali, tatay nya pala yun."

*we both laughed*

wahaha! :D so yun, lingon naman ako ng lingon. yee, i saw him smiling.Ü natutuwa talaga ko. tapos pagsakay ko sa tricycle, tinanaw ko muna xa. naglakad kasi xa pauwi. :) eon, i was staring at him 'til he faded......

just a glimpse of the human saxophone...

maybe you'll be wondering where's he looking at. hmm, hoping it was me. ahahaha. :)) just staring at the sky. (: naghihintay ng himala. pwahaha. XD

LOL. hahaha! :DD the last time i did this pose was when i was in kindergarten. ahaha. XD funny me.

nabusog ako sa post kong 'to! ^^,

'til next time. i'll be updating ye guys during our vacation. i heard that we'll be going to different places with my dads side of the family. coz my uncle just got here yesterday with his family and they'll be staying here 'til january 7. we're fullybooked for the week. ^^

this'll be fun! :D

with a snap, it ends.

this is my last day at school this 2008. by the time i return, it's already 2009! :))))) hoo! time's zoom fast!! WUSHKALABUSH!!!! :DDD hahaha. masaya ko? masaya nga ba? ahoho.Ü hmm,

xa: may sasabihin ako sayo.

ako: ano yun?

xa: MAHAL NA MAHAL KITA!Ü

wakokoko.Ü di paba ko sasaya nyan!?? *kiligers* ahaha. kaloka! he made my day. chos! ahaha. parang isang pitik lang, nawala ang kalumbayan ko sa buay. ahaha. chos ulit! pwahaha. :))))) kahit saglit, sobrang napasaya nya ko.Ü

haay, i recalled the fireworks display last night.Ü' so beautiful. galing sa yupi.Ü ahoho. natawa ako bigla. he also saw the fireworks. nasa kapilya daw xa non.Ü ahee, ahoho. :))

pwahaha. :)) pinahiya pako ng loko. ahaha. funny xa. FUNNY. :"> pero sa luob luob ko, pahiya ako. wuhaha. =))

xa: **! di yun star!

ako: ha?

xa: venus daw yun saka jupiter.

ako: aa, ok. (mejo pahumble)

then i just said to myself, hmp! para sakin istar yon! ahaha. XD

pwahaha. :DD eon. e mas marunong xa e. magagawa ko diba? hihi, ^^ ow! i finished uploading our pictures from my bestfriends debut at MOA. ahaha. we haven't got the chance to take a shot at baclaran. baka hablutin e. ahaha. ((: people there are quite ambitious and at the same time, RUDE! tsk nga ko ng tsk e. ahaha. grabe yung place na yun! ambabastos ng tao. imagine, someone was already sticking his ugly face to mine and saying, "hi miss! alabyu. amishu." iww! pwehness. ~:<

oh anyway, nagenjoy naman. dami napamili. ubos ang 2k namin. ahaha. :)) thanks to my dad for giving me 1k. ^^, hoo!

okay, here's just SOME of our pics during dec.16th. :) my bestfriends debut. ^^

^_^

nagtataka kayo kung bat di kami nagpapalit ng pwesto everytime we take pictures??

hmm, mas sanay daw kami sa ganung side. ahaha. :))

wureberr. ~:)

for more pics, sa FS nalang. ahaha. (((((:

~~ wee! nakakateks ko na si dadistar. ^^,